mmmm

egg salad sandwhich

two cookies

carrots and ranch

pizza

cinnamon sticks

how do they do it?

cigarettes
coffee with white chocoalte creamer
a six-inch steak
two rasberry cookies..mmmm

vwell...i changed it from three-seven
because? obviously...i was hungry

I woke up at nine-thirty, drove to Starbucks and picked up a white mocha with rasberry flavoring. and it was the most sexual thing I've ever drank. that held me over until three.
i was just in modern, throwing my slacks back on when Lilly (prof) insisted that I eat something, she made me walk downstairs and buy a chocolate muscle muffin and an apple for good measure

muffin-366
apple-130
starbucks-450
total-946

Is that completely idiotic?

Five-Seven?

one meal a day?

i'm pretty sure I would punch myself in the face for thinking that's ok.

But I can't help but toy with the idea.

Five to Seven

So yesterday I ate a wild amount of pretty much everything my mother stuffed into a valentines day box. and although it was gratifying because chocolate covered pretzels are gorgeous things...I decided to try the five-to-seven deal. Where I eat one meal between five-to-seven, that way I can't over eat.

2-13-2011

weight-132

height=5'2

goal w-115

By May 1, 2011

I woke up at twelve today. I feel like I have a hangover, but I didn't drink. I'm completely warn out, my head hurts, neck hurts, I must have cancer, or some cardio tangerine disease.

Anyway.

I dislike weight. I dislike articles on obesity, how to eat avacodas, and what creamers the most fattening. If I could I'd eat twelve-million cheese cakes and then roll in oreo pudding.

However, I want to be tiny. Which reminds me of the plague...But somehow I want to do this.

So first thing I ate today.

four meatballs (I stole from work)-550

coffee with creamer-60

So if I want to lose weight, the health charts
say to eat 1,300
So I have 690 calories left to spare.
Let's see if this works.




It's sad...because I feel like all women are beautiful. No matter what their weight is, but I can't help butfeel immobile in my own body. I don't feel in sync. I'd like to feel like I can relate and understand it. What I mean by that...is I simply want to regain my confidence.